wat i m doin noe, i tink i should be figuring hoe to use tis blog.. how to update it ba.. haha.. i tink i will write
down wat is my feelin now.. haha..
hmmm.. i dunno.. maybe i am confused right noe.. havin 2 boifrenz at a moment? but my first boifrenz like dun care dun care about mi like that lol.. it like havin boifrenz like dun have like that.. den for the second one.. he cares for mi alot.. but i dun realli like it.. it like he treatin mi as an hospital patient lol.. i mean ya lar.. both of them must think for my feelin lol.. but i just find that it very weird lar.. i dun even koe y i agreed to be their galfrenz at first.. have i became dumb or stupid? both of them is my very good frenz at workplace den noe became my boifrenzs.. i mean wat charms i have? just let mi have a peaceful daes lol.. wat i should do noe? tell the both of them i wanna break wif them? but i dun wan to be that cruel lol.. i am not that kind of person.. but then i have already consider alot.. my happiness comes first.. so it either choose one if them or break.. till i find a better guy in the world.. it just like i cant get it off from my head even when i keep tellin myself not to tink about them too much.. i feel like cryin.. hoe.. haiz..
our first year anniversary, he didnt even bother about it.. it already 1 year lol.. dun even sae first year lol.. it like every month i am the one onli remember it.. so time i am just so angry with him lar.. yes.. i dun like to bother him so much.. but then at least go out with mi maybe once a while or wat lol.. he can dun go out with mi for months lol.. even dun even give mi a call.. onli got tink need to be done for him den he wll call mi.. wat am i to him? galfrenz or slave? i am very disappointed in him lol.. tis is also one of the tinks that make mi angry lol.. might as well break with him..
tis morning, i was hearing wu ke qun de can fei.. the song was like describing mi lol.. very sad that song.. but i realli like it lar.. whenever hearing tis song n tinkin about them.. it just wanna make mi cry.. but then no matter wat, still have to hold back my tears.. haiz.. enough of taking about them le lar.. just make mi so sad..
hmm.. my idiotic brother.. alot to sae about him.. always so lazy dun wan do housework.. noe i workin full time must also give him some moni to survive.. now ii cant even support myself with that $600 every month lol.. wanna go for so mani courses.. jap course, singing course and alot lot more lol.. who the hell do he tink he is? also another guy makin my blood boil.. in this world there is no good guy.. i tink onli singapore lar.. how i wish i can go other places to stay.. singapore so stress for mi lol.. must ask japan to wait for mi.. will go over there one dae.. haha.. of cos go there find ryo, aiba, ohkura, yassu, masuda, yuya and etc... must ask them to wait for mi lol.. haha.. well talkin about them and here i am smilin to myself.. haha..
hmmm.. well end off here lol.. tml still got work.. have to sleep noe lar.. den will write in here asap..
bye good nite..
