No Meaning for Me to Live On.....

hmmmm... i suddenly feel that if i am not borned in this world.. maybe it will be good ba... i really wanna bring happiness to ppl around me... but it seems that i only bring them sadness... if i am not borned in this world i think that most ppl will be better ba... i really wish that i can disappeared to a place where no one will know who i am... sometime i was wondering why didi my parents borned me out... it's like they borned me out just to scold me that all... so what the use... maybe i should die better... but how to? maybe freeze myself to dead... it will be faster and painless... or like what most story have.. lock myself in the bathroom.. den cut my wrist till i lost all my blood... it's just a few cut that all.. not really that pain ba... hahaha... but i wont go jump off from the building lar.. too pain.. and mostly.. i scare of height.. hahaha... or maybe better.. eat the whole bottle of sleeping pills... den sleep all the way.... so which one will be better for me.. hahaha.. haiz... really donnoe how to continue my life with it.. HOW? HOW? HOW? haiz.. maybe recently i am tired ba.. with all those job that i need to do in the office... haiz.. then really lei.. not i do one.. in the end sae till like my fault lol... WTH... let them scold ba.. scold till there got no voice better... hahaha... k lar... i will update on my day dreaming fic with... erm... Uchi ba.. hahaha... then jya ne...